Hanging in there

Hello. I have still been sick. I am over my pnumonia but I still have chest pain, shortness of breath and fatigue. My doctor thinks it will just take time. But I am going to a lung specialist next week. I haven't exercised since the end of January. I don't have energy to get through my regular day let alone exercise. I lost 9 pounds being sick but I am holding steady with my weight now. I actually don't want to lose any more weight because it is due to being sick and is not healthy weight loss. So I am happy that I am not losing any more right now.

I'm hanging in there. But it has been a long road. So I will see what next week brings.

Pnumonia

Finally the last week in January, I got my act together diet-wise. Also exercise was good. I didn't lose anything that last week though which frankly surprised me a little. But I was getting into the groove of things.

But then I got the flu which turned into pnumonia. So that is what I have/am recovering from right now. My lungs are still sore. I don't have any risk factors for getting pnumonia, I am not a smoker, I don't have astma, etc. So I don't know why I got it. It is kind of scary. I am feeling better but it will be a while until I can exercise. I want to have NO pain in my lungs before I exercise and I am not there yet. I lost 5.5 lbs from the flu and pnumonia. I wouldn't recommend the flu diet though. It's pretty miserable.

So much for my nice exercise plan all written down and planned out on my calendar! I'll tell you what though. Really I am thankful just to be healthy and get better. With all the horror stories I could think about, I just want to get better.

Gained a Pound

Yeah. My first week did not go very well. I am just dreading doing it. Eating healthy does get easier the longer you do it. It is just the transition, that first week where you feel like crap because you are hungry, and craving and feel weak and tired because you are eating a lot less than you used to. The good thing is that I haven't been overeating. I have been low on energy lately. I want to get my thyroid checked by my doctor but I haven't got around to it. Blah. I am just full of excuses. But I did want to be honest and check in.

I looked back on my pregancy journal from my second child. My current weight is only 5 pounds less that when I was full term pregnant. Ack! That's bad. So I really need to do something.

My workouts have been good and I am enjoying them.

Start Day!

Actually yesterday was Start Day, but I didn't get to post until today! Yes I am starting again eating right and exercising. Yesterday was a Great day. I got a good workout in and ate terrific. Today I got a good workout in and ate good until this evening. I did not eat enough during the day and I was STARVING and cooking dinner at the same time. Well I picked on things I shouldn't have picked on just because I couldn't wait until my food was cooked. It will take me a day or two to get it all worked out again.

I went to Florida for the holidays. My parents live in West Palm Beach. My whole family was there except for my one brother. It was great but I did a lot of damage food wise. At one point my mom gave me the job of unwrapping the hershey kisses for the peanut butter blossom cookies that she was making. Ack!! I ate my mom's cookies every day! That is why I didn't even want to bother starting until after the holiday. I knew a week in my Mom's house with a load of home baked goodies would be too hard.

I made a nice goal poster with all my workouts posted on it. My husband said that if I work half as hard on my diet and exercise as I did on the poster, I will be doing great! He was making fun of my goal poster:) My husband asked me if I was going to get my bikini body back by spring. I said yes! He is really giving me a hard time about my weight. He still loves me of course but he is not used to seeing me this way.

Onward and upward.
Scale weight today: 121 lb (I was 112 this past summer)

I Want Out!

I WANT OUT! Of this miserable place of overeating! Ugh. I feel so overstuffed all of the time. But yet, I don't stop. It makes no sense. I'm visiting my parents in Florida for Christmas. I'm excited, but Christmas and vacations always seem to give me migranes. This year I have both Christmas and vacation at the same time. I have a semi-headache, am extemely tired (even though I slept fine) and am nauseaous today. The reason I haven't been writing is I haven't had anything good to say and I hate when I write a post and it sounds like I'm whining! So I haven't written anything. I have literally been waiting for Jan 2nd, the day I start my new diet. It is so wrong/lame I know, waiting until the new year to start. I just want to start already. My stomach is crazy fat! But I know I'll be surrounded with goodies the next couple of weeks.

Some of my goals for next year include;
1) Staying employed!!
2) Staying out of debt!
3) Feed my family healthy food!
4) Change my eating habits FOR GOOD, forever!
5) Turn 40 in the BEST shape of my life!
6) Run some road races for FUN this year! (I've already picked out 3 or 4)
7) Become certified in personal training (just throwing that out there!) Not sure if I want this or not.

Freaky Rash

I had something strange happen to me. Last weekend, I broke out into a rash all over my body. I can't prove it and I didn't go to a doctor but I am thinking that it is from how I have been eating these last few months. I have been eating a lot of crap and I think my body rebelled. I used to joke with my husband that since I started eating "leaner and greener" my body can't handle the junk. I don't think it is a joke. I don't think my body can handle a regualr diet of donuts and ice cream. It just rebelled in a major way! I also started having gall bladder pain. So maybe it isn't just about aesthetics for me. It is going to have to be about health. It freaked me out a little.
So I whipped out my oatmeal, flaxoil and lemon juice! And I cleaned up my diet! I also got the detox headache, although it wasn't too bad because I tried to GRADUALLY clean up my diet rather than just all in one day, whamo. Immediately my gall bladder felt better and after a few days, my rash is gone. Oh, I so need to get back on the wagon! Man, I miss having a trainer.

An Update - Hi Y'all

Yes I'm still here. I like lists so my post will be in list format:)

Diet - What diet? I have officially gained back everything that I lost with Tony. I keep thinking that I want to wait to start again until after the New Year. I know it has to be a lifestyle change and that I shouldn't wait. But it just seems like I know I will mess up too much over the holidays, so why start now? I like the Tony program foodwise, except I wish it was a little less meat. My body responds very well to eating meat, it just gags me sometimes! I just borrowed three neat cookbooks from the library. "The Ultimate Vegetarian Cookbook", "The Good Carb Cookbook, and "Barbecue Bible, Sauces, Rubs and Marinades." I know you are thinking that the first and the last are kind of contradictory. I don't want to eliminate ALL meat, I just don't want to HAVE to eat it at every meal, know what I mean?

Exercise - I am continuing to exercise. I only average 3 to 4 days per week though. Something that I've found works for me is I do "Tony Style" (that is, traditional body building) workouts for 3 weeks and then I do one week of"Turbulence Training" or "full body circuits" style of workout. This works out very nicely because it gives me variety to look forward to every three weeks. This is definitly an exercise pattern I could keep up for life.

General Life - I am thinking a lot about my To Do for Christmas. I am also going on vacation over Christmas. I am having this sense of wanting to "wait until things slow down" to really focus on diet and exercise and getting my body back. BUT I don't think this will EVER happen. If anything, life just gets more busy the older we get. Especially when my kids get to the age where they are involved in lots of activities.

News - I'm so glad the election is OVER. Nuf said.

Work - I had another crappy day at work. Long story short, my boss doesn't give me much work but gives it to someone else instead. Most people would probably like this BUT 1) I need "billable time and 2)I get stuck working on crappy projects that nobody else wants and don't get the "good stuff". (It's like getting picked last in gym class sorta :) ) I figure it is because 1)he doesn't like me, or 2)because I'm a girl and he is more comfortable working with men, or 3)because I don't do good work. I don't think it is the last reason because I get compliments from others on the good work I do. So . . . that leaves the other two. Neither is good. I'm pretty fed up today. I'll probably be in a better mood tomorrow and think it is all in my imagination.

Kids - Nothing big, just the general "I feel like I need to do a better job as a wife and mother" thinking:)

I am still amazed that I actually DID IT on the Tony Plan(lost a lot of fat). And I let it go. I want it back but I want to wait until the first of the year.

I should tell you about my food menu spreadsheet. I post about it next. It has one week of meal on a single sheet of paper. I love to use it for planning my meals. If I can figure out how to post a file, I can post it. It is really cool.