Small Victories and Consistency

I have been having some small victories with my eating and exercising. Meaning that I have done a few things right. Today I cooked up some asparagus. I have also been hitting the water hard. Things like that.

I decided to hire Tony DiCostanzo of Dreambodies BTS. I am excited but also nervous about starting with him. I think I will enjoy working with him. I listened to his first radio program with Stacey yesterday! One thing he said that stuck out for me was that you can't change the past but you can change the next 10 or 15 minutes or something to that effect. So after the program I DID change the next 10 or 15 minutes. I walked the dog, pre-cooked my breakfast and got ready for the next day. It turned out to be a very nice evening.

I have had some success in the past but I have these relapses where I basically just "give up." Not just on eating healthy or exercising but on other goals as well. Like one of my goals was to eat a sit-down family meal at least 4x per week at the table. I did very well on this for weeks and weeks and then the last 3 weeks or 4 weeks nothin. It is awful. I actually wonder if I get depressed (as in clinically depressed) and just give up. There is so much to do and not enough time to do it and I mess up so often and forget things and I think my family doesn't care (but then I think they do), so again, "What is the point." I can't garden because I forget to water regularly, I can't stay organized because I don't keep up on filing, etc. I even stopped reading with my daughter on a regular basis over that last several months and now her reading is "below grade level"! See what I mean??

The missing key to my success (in many areas of my life) seems to be a need for consistency. But so far I have not been able to achieve that. It will help to have some help (Tony) because 1) I won't have to plan, analyse and come up with diets / workouts and that will be a relief and 2) It will take some of the pressure off of me. Maybe he can help me with this.

I hope I can do it.

(Now I BET I won't write in this blog for a long, long time because I can't be consistent. It just doesn't seem to be in me!)

Update

OK. Since my last post I have just been coasting along. Well that is not exactly accurate. I have actually been eating a LOT of crap. I guess it is that "all or nothing thinking." Anyway I've thought quite a few times of just trying again to eat healthy. What stops me is I think, "What is the point? I don't look any different and I never get anywhere." So after a lot of thought, I have decided to hire a personal trainer to tell me exactly what to do and exactly what to eat. I resisted this for a long time, cause I like to do my own thang! But I have gotton nowhere. This way, I don't feel like I'm doing it all by myself. Anyway we will see how it goes. I haven't started yet.Lots of other things going on in my life (just the normal routine of life). I sometimes think of writing about other topics besides dieting and exercising because that gets old sometimes! But this is mostly supposed to be a fitness blog! Home with my sick daughter today. There, that is something different.