Yes I am still here

Yes I am still here. I have been sick on and off for two weeks and had a migrane for 5 days. My eating has been horrible, totally off plan, not even trying really. So I think I am ballooning up! I need to drag myself back up. I re-started taking BC pills about 4 months ago and my hormones are going crazy. I am craving junk food, depressed, overwhelmed and have been getting migranes every month. So this is all wrecking havoc on my plan to lose this fat! I know it just sounds like a lot of excuses. Actually that is why I haven't been writing, because I don't want to just write that I am failing, yet again and sound like a whiner. But I really wanted to update. So I did. There you go. Not a good update, but an update. I sometimes wish I could hire a trainer/nutritionist to help me but no $ right now for that. Maybe later.

Life Got In The Way This Week

Yes this week, life has got in the way of my focus on myself. I find myself just saying screw it! My daughter was sick, so I was home with her and off my schedule. I find it much harder to eat right when I am home all day rather than at work. I know this is not a good excuse. I need to just work with what I have. Now I am sick and have NO energy to work out. I am taking it easy because I think my body needs the rest. I think I am PMSing because I am super CRAVING chocolate and various carbs! Ugh need I say more.

After two weeks I took measurements and I am up about 0.125 inch in waist measurement and up about a pound so that is not good progress. I am wondering if I need to hire a professional to help me out because I don't seem to be doing very well on my own.

On a off topic, I am SICK OF feeling like a failure because I ONLY get 15 things done out of the 25 things that I have to do everyday. In other words even though I can get some things accomplished, I still am frustrated that I didn't do EVERYTHING!

Working on it

I have been taking a sneak peek at my waist and "pooch" measurements the last two mornings to see if I am making progress. My pooch is smaller and my waist is up and down. My weight is up which is not unexpected. I always gain weight at first when I diet. It's very weird. I'm thinking of not even going by the scale, at least for a little while, just try and get my waist circumference DOWN! That is really what I want anyway.

So I'm not sure if I am making progress. I might be, but I should probably work a little harder. Like I said before, sometimes I feel thinner. But in the evenings I just feel HUGE.

I have been hitting my workouts good. I like playing with my new heart rate monitor. But it confirms what I expected, that I am not working hard or long enough. I am averaging about 200 cal per workout session and this should be a little higher. I am also getting my walking in. I like playing with my pedometer. (All these fun Christmas toys!) But the pedometer also confirms what I thought, that I am not very active. My steps rarely get above 5300 or so.

So for now I am focusing on working out harder and longer and getting my steps in. Now if I could just get a handle on not cheating with the food. I am working on that too.

Feeling Thinner

Well I FEEL thinner!

Can I go with that?

Yeah, I think I will go with that:)

Saturday

One week into my new (renewed) healthy lifestyle. First the basics. I measured my waist and no change there. So I haven't lost any inches. However I feel SO much better physically since I've been eating healthier and EXERCISING.

The difference that I feel when I exercise is AMAZING. I am sleeping better and have a ton more energy and I don't feel like I "can't get enough air." when I breathe. I hope I am able to exercise forever.

There have been a few cheats with my eating but I am doing much better and there has been no binging.

I feel thinner but the numbers don't show it.

Anyway, I plan to have another good week (even better actually). I have no stressful situations in my near future so I should be good to go!