PMS week

I'm still here. I am having a rough week this week. Mainly I am just more hungry than normal. I think it is PMS. I'm not whining, I am just aware of this problem. I never realized how I really do feel different before my period. Now I am more aware of it. This is a good thing though because when I recognize my extra hungriness, I try not to go overboard with my eating. You know what they say, being aware of the problem is half the battle. I have to admit I have been eating a few extra carbs this week. I don't think I could avoid binging on carbs if I didn't allow myself something. So I allow myself a few extra but healthy carbs to keep my sanity and my strength up.

I have not weighed yet. Next Wednesday I will. I don't know how I will take it if I haven't lost anything. I'm guessing pretty bad! Of course I flip back and forth between feeling like I am making progress and feeling like I am not getting anywhere!

No weighing in for me!

Well, I'm plugging right along, eating healthy and exercising. I think I ate too much today. It was all healthy food but probably too many calories. I was HUNGRY today so I ate. But that is my problem, eating too much. But I only ate healthy food and I never stuffed myself today.

I'm thinking about NOT weighing myself for a while. It's just too discouraging when it doesn't go down. The way I see it, if I put 100% effort into it, that means that I have done EVERYTHING I possible could to succeed. I can't do more than that. If in doing that, I still don't lose those last 10 pounds then really THERE ISN'T ANY MORE I COULD HAVE DONE and I have done all that I can do. That doesn't make me a failure because I worked to my potential.

Eat the Healthy Stuff

How am I feeling today? Hungry but bloated in the belly. Interesting combination. Actually the funny thing is that the only part of my body that I don't like is my stomach. That is where I carry all of my fat. The rest of my body looks pretty decent, actually. But it seems that I can't see the good parts of my body and be happy, only the bad. I really should get a better attitude on that.

I'm feeling pretty strong today as far as my diet resolve goes. I'm eating pretty good. I DO need to add in good food as well as cutting out the junk. Since I eat so much junk, when I take it out, I really dip my calories too low (like Brit man said). Today for instance, I had eaten breakfast, snack and lunch already and it was not yet time for my afternoon snack and I felt completely starving. This was the point in the past where I said just screw it and dove headfirst into a bowl of cereal. But this time I calmly decided that it WAS best for me to eat but I made a healthy chicken wrap (with protein) and it was actually pretty good. After I ate I felt SO much better.

I just feel like I have NO energy and I think the problem may be not eating enough GOOD healthy food. So I will try eating more healthy food.

Let's here it for LISS!

I have a confession to make. I like my LISS (low intensity steady state cardio)! Yeah I said it. I am not a cardio bunny by any means but yes, you will sometimes find me on the treadmill and here's why.

I don't have to think! My mind is ALWAYS going. I have to think at my job, at home and when I weight train (so I don't kill myself), etc. I'm always thinking about what I have to do, where I have to go, what time it is, what we need to buy and how we are going to buy it, what stupid thing I said/did the other day and did I really look that stupid, worrying about my kids, my job, deadlines, things at my kids' school . . . . well you get the idea. With HIIT or weight training, I have to count and concentrate and keep track of what I am doing. With Steady State cardio, other than watching out for the passing car or animal if I am outside, I DONT HAVE TO THINK ABOUT WHAT I AM DOING and that feels GREAT!!!

I can't hack 5 intense workouts a week. My 3 weight training days a week are very intense. I am usually sore the next day. When I do SS cardio at a low intensity, it feels like I am "sneaking" exercise into my body, like my body hardly notices. It's easier on my body. Yes is doesn't burn as many calories as HIIT, but frankly I just couldn't function the other 23 hours of the day if I did 5 hard workouts a week.

The endorphan high or whatever it is that makes me feel RELAXED but ENERGIZED after a SS cardio session. I usually feel relaxed after weight training and HIIT but pretty much drained afterwards. BUT with the lower intensity, I feel like I have something "left over" to finish my day.

On good days, I feel like a kid when I run.

And finally, I have a lot of good memories of my steady state cardio run/walks outside. I remember running along the beach, watching Spring come over several weeks (tree and flowers blooming), smelling all the yummy cooking smells and sweet laundry detergent smells from people's dryers, and many other good (and sometimes adventurous) memories from my runs.

Mostly I just daydream when I'm running/walking. It is truly my time and I love it! So say what you want to say about HIIT. I do HIIT from time to time but don't take away my LISS! :)

It's a GO! on the exercising! SORE TODAY!

I have been working out more consistently the past two weeks. And my eating has been much better.

Today I feel like crap though. It has been a looong time since I did deadlifts at the gym. Well Monday not only did I do them again but I did 6 sets of them and one set was my all time highest weight that I have ever done on deadlifts. Stupid me, thinking that after not doing deadlifts for a long time, I can just waltz back into the gym and pick up where I left off on weights. Ugh. I have ONE WORD.

OW!

I seriously can hardly walk today and it is the second day. My legs are SO SORE. That was NOT very smart of me. Anyway I also had a migrane yesterday. I was wondering if overdoing it in the gym brought it on.

I have really cut back on my food the last four days and it is starting to catch up with me. I feel "hollow" and weak in my body. I think I need more calories.

And as usual, my weight is about the same. I really think I can drop a few pounds though by just watching how much I eat, cutting out the junk and exercising. However today I feel like crap from not eating my normal junk!

A Schedule

O.K. I at least have a schedule now.

BUT . . .

IF I am not successful this time getting things done on my own (which I feel I SHOULD be able to do), I may have to swallow my pride and hire a personal trainer already!!

Kind of Crappy

It has been a crappy week. The last two weeks have been crappy. I am eating horrible. I couldn't make it to the gym because I have stayed late at work every night this week and I get home late. My poor kids have been battling colds/coughs for 2 to 3 weeks now (must be February/March). And my husband has been really busy at work, so he is kind of crabby, leaves early and comes home late. My daughter had some kind of behaviour problem at school this week. She hasn't been getting enough sleep because she just won't settle down and sleep at night.

I need to get on a schedule.